Yeah...right.... I really do have to work on my resolutions list...big time. Lots I need to accomplish this year. I am a great procrastinator, pessimist and all around Negative Nelly. That aside, I am gearing myself up to be willing, and to focus on improving things in a positive and productive way and move forward.
Not that blogging cannot fill a positive void in the most dismal of attitudal villainy that is my psyche but I don't blog for that reason. Translation: I blog to amuse myself. When you stop to think you're reading this stuff (I know you're wondering what cocktail of drugs I really SHOULD be taking to keep me drooling on myself and "not bothering the adults," arn'tcha? And I don't even have court-mandated supervision...that's scary... ) I write to play with myself (easy, Chewie...I meant my mind!) and tickle the funny bone of any wayward unsuspecting victim or two. ;o)
Sooo.......In the year of 2009, I resolve to (really...I do.....)
Organize my supplies, tools, educational materials and space into a cohesive workspace and not it's current function as a sucking black hole that once an item slips in, it's never seen again. (Cue Maximilian Schell and Ernest Borgnine...)
- Inventory my current designs properly and publish them. Yes, I have many, many, many pieces of jewelry, but between the Internet demons and Murphy wailing on me- my sites are DOWN more than up. OK then...this brings me to the next thing...
- HAVE my websites up and running properly. Well...Duh? I've taken one down to overhaul but the others are just a'waitin' for me to git a move-on... *Sigh...and now I will...tbc...
- Stop working on my jewelry at my computer desk and move INTO my newly spiffy and organized workspace. Seriously, I spend more time online than I do much else....except maybe fishing beads and wire out from under my keys! I want to keep the two areas separate and it is REALLY hard to do that...! But I have to try...
- Post new goodies here like these regularly for others to ogle and catalog my thoughts and feeling and... (Whoa! When did I sit on Dr. Phil's couch?!)
- Alright...I do want to publish the pieces I make and the stories behind them; feelings, poems and such. Corny but true...
- Publish my progress and catalog my journey to being a better artist. I need to make myself accountable for what I do. And "Dear Diary"...won't cut it. More being a cornball but I AM scouting new horizons...jeez...YOU could be more positive...
- Be more tolerant of the ignats that burn my synapses with mindless drivel and nothing USEFUL to say...and not grind them into dust. Um...Don't be holding your breath on that one- 'kay? I AM one of those people...Hey-you keep that medication away from me!
- Stop waiting until the last possible minute to start a project, never mind finishing one. I am SO bad at this!
- And (The last one, I promise).....giving myself a break and stop blaming and making things seem like they're happening TO me. Things I cannot control are out of my control and not my "fault." What others say and think are not my responsibility. Blame or feeling that I'm not a good enough as an artist to "stir the masses" is just garbage in my head that I need to get rid of...Isn't that like when people tell you this person has "toys in their attic":...? Yes, but I PLAY with all those toys...and most are semi-automatic weapons- hee!
Hope the day finds you and yours well and happy!